Wow, 250 jumps is a lot. I am still in search for my first jump, and it is harder then I was thinking to find the "right" place. But if I read here that an experience person that already has jumped 84 times is still afraid than I have nothing to be ashamed about it.I think everyone is afraid for their first jump!
I actually have a friend who is training to be an instructor. He has to have 250 jumps under his belt and he's currently at 84.
He's jumped from a plane 84 times already and he says he still gets nervous before every jump anyway, ha. I guess that's part of the appeal?